Update on Me

Today I am a roller coaster honestly.

I got a myspace message that sounds weird or off and I think it means my first boyfriend which is also one of my oldest friend died last night... I am too afraid to call his mama and find out...

I am freaking out over the baby... I really shouldn't but I feel so stupid. I mean I bought mostly winter clothes for the baby then I realized it will be 100 degree's when he is born so he might be too hot in the clothes I bought him so then I stressed my husband out by telling him I would need something else but it will be 100 degree's during the day and cool at night so what would the newborn wear? His little legs will be red and splotchy in a onesie... Then a light bulb went off and said if the PJ's I have for him are too warm then I will go buy him some little rompers then why worry about it now unless I can find them at yard sales or something.

Diapers and Breastfeeding are scaring me... The thought of a c-section (I am going to make sure a VBAC isn't an option AGAIN and AGAIN) being tied down for forty five minutes I just feel an anxiety attack will happen. Not being able to hold, nurse, or touch the baby because my arms have to be tied down. Oh god I want to cry.

Then James... I don't know what to do about James. I feel like I've been avoiding him for days because I don't know what to say to him. am so proud of my Jamesy for being so unselfish to buy a Pack N Play for us... No one asked him to. I mean that says so much I don't know if I could actually say it without breaking down into tears. I mean that means he accepts William and wants to help with him (he would never dream of holding him still I think!) It means he LOVES me and yeah I knew that because he doesn't verbally defend me but he does it in his own way (we've seen some of the stuff he writes about me), I always think of my self as an intruder or the evil step mother bitch because I give him structure and discipline. Its amazing you give someone discipline and they reward you with LOVE! He doesn't buy gifts but this was a BIG gift and I know what he wants and cannot afford so he could have bought something he wants for himself instead. I have asked him to even buy his dad a $20 DVD and he said no. But he told Rick he felt like an ass for forgetting Mothers Day (although he didn't get his mother anything and never does unless I remind him... He didn't even want to call her we did remind him to do that) He said he really wanted to help with William and didn't know how. He see's how stressed we are trying to come up with the money for everything. Its truly a gift an amazing gift that I never thought would happen with my adult step children... WOW

I had a blast at my baby shower on Sunday thanks to my Hostess Crystal and her little assistant Heather who helped with the decorations and cake... Thats so sweet of both of them. All my wonderful supportive Military Wife friends that came. Thank you to those who came and to those of who were there in spirit you know who you are.. You learn who your true friends are even asking for the simplistest thing.

Anyways I rambled yeah I had a great time. Rick was supposed to take pictures but didn't cause he's a goober.. And I have to figure out how to get them off my friends camera and on to my computer at some point but here are some pictures

I got gift cards from Pegan and Marissa as well as Rick's aunt sent me cash which will go straight into Williams savings account or piggy bank!

Pictures from when we started the closet project

Closet Deadline 2 days behind but DONE!

We have a huge hall way closet. I had been hanging Skylar's clothes in there and sharing the closet for storage for a few months now since her closet is small and her room is a jungle. So when we found out we were going to stay in base housing for a little bit with a baby I had to come up with some way to store all a newborn's stuff in there as well. Many of you know I am addicted to the show clean house and they feature a company called the container store. I did some reasearch I went to Lowes, Home Depot and even Target to see different closet storage ideas. Of course being in base housing I can't do anything drastic! I called the Container Store and then even mapped out a useable space like the one they have pictured above. That was my goal to acheive. They gave me an inventory sheet than ran over $400 dollars. With the housing drama in Texas I had to cut costs and decided to try and do it cheaper.

Here is the closest I have to a finished product. On the right the colored cubes is an organizer I bought from avon with the days of the week on it and cubbies for each her undies and shoes etc. So I put her clothes for the week in these cubes to make it effortless for others (Skylar included) to get her dressed. The plastic drawers are for William's Onesies and Gowns.. Botttom drawer I just threw in Skylar's bike shorts she likes to wear alot. Hanging above is her dresses for church.

Lets look on the shelves. The canvas bin on the right is for PJ's and Night gowns (she converted from thick footies to regular two piece pj's quickly lol) and Socks and Undies in the tupperware. Pushed way back in the corner are tights and leggings.

I got these great bins for $3 at Target. They are stackable and I have Williams socks, shoes, bibs, hats etc... in each one... I will probably get Skylar similar ones that are pink because they work GREAT!

There are all William's clothes hanging up and his receving blankets and blankets that go with his layette's in the tupperware below. I open the tupperware and it smells so DOWNY fresh lol.

All Skylar's school clothes hanging up. Her play clothes can go in her room. I work with a limited amount of drawers and hang mostly everything.

Bigger blankets, bedding and our duffle bags for when we travel are on the top shelf of the closet :)

We got a present!

I woke up a little after 10 because I sensed someone was in my room. Wicked sense I've gotten since the deployment. My eyes immediately saw the words GRACO on a huge box. Jamesy felt bad he forgot about Mother's Day and wanted to help with William. So he wanted to buy something we really needed so he bought William http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3402604&CAWELAID=326907825. I couldn't sleep much after that my head is racing and he makes me so proud and I want to thank him I just don't know how :)

Update on the Registry's!

Woot just so you know I've updated the registry's with the things I've already picked up. Like the thermometer at Babies R Us and pieces of the bedding at Target :)
Like I got the bumper for my bedding off of ebay instead of just buying it in Target :) But I deleted it off the registry..

So go check it out...
Oh yeah and my disclaimer yeah there is multiples it was either out of my control or there for a reason :)

Target
Registry # 014134600000586 (its registered under my private email address)

Babies R Us.
Registry # 93058777
93484980

Sears
Registry ID: 900006269559010101
Registry ID: 900006444116010101

Burlington Coat Factory
Registry Id: 13841625

buybuybaby.com

Friday Night Goodies.

I went to Gymboree while Rick was getting his hair cut. I got all this for $50 plus I got $25 in Gymbobucks. I also got another blanket and a t-shirt for Skylar. I actually got a layette cheaper than I would at Children's Place.





I really wanted this entire set but we are out of cash and time they are doing a floor change this weekend. I love love love Children's Place.

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